|Christmas and the New Year
||[Jan. 4th, 2007|11:57 am]
Well, I've had a rather nice Christmas, got lots of nice presents including the World of Warcraft board game, a signed Bill Bailey photo, loads of books (inc 7 Black Library novels, already read Double Eagle!), a Sonata Arctica CD, Star Wars eps 5 & 6, five Warcraft tcg starter decks and lots of other stuff!
The new years get together was good too, went round Steve and Catherines house again, not as many at this years get together, but still nice.
However, I've only got about 9 days left before I'm packed off to university again :( And I've done next to fuck all work for the assignments that need to be handed in the week I go back. I knew this would happen of course, but for some reason (perhaps, I dunno, because my course is shite) I just can't summon the motivation to complete (or start?..) some work.
Yes, I'm certain that when I fail my exams and drop out as a failure, I'll get depressed, look back and wished I'd just done the work. But, since I'll never meet my future self, I don't rightly give a shit at the moment. I'm also bitter because all of my other friends seem to be having a whale of a time at their universities, whereas my experience could quite possibly be the worst university experience I could ever have been cursed with.
Finally, although I can keep track of what some of my friends are up to via myspace or livejournal, I still miss them. I've not heard from or seen Paul, Little John, Mole, Grant or any of the old guard. Not only did the dissolving of the old Bulko club disperse many of us, the recent disbanding of the new DreamDealers club has made things worse. All I can see at the moment is the cracks appearing in every aspect of my social life. :( Many of my old friends have moved on and although it's been happening gradually for a while, it's really starting to get to me now.
I don't know what to do, it's been a nice Christmas holiday, but the new year seems to hold only misery, disaster and despair.